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2008/7/28 Travelling alone Lots people love to travel alone. I haven't done it yet. Really want to know how it feels. But i am too scared. I am scared that i would feel lonely, I am scared that I am going to be bored, I am scared that I would get lost... I've always been depending on somebody all these years, my mom, my grandparents, and my boyfriends. Going out with anybody, I am never the one who know the direction. I am used to it. I've always enjoyed to be taken care of, to be spoiled, and I thought one day I would grow up, magically, just like a snap. But what if I was wrong? What if i just grow older but not wiser?What if I never got a chance to grow up and to be forced to be on my own some day soon? I don't know since when I become this whiny baby, crying for everything I can't have. I depend on other people, and that's why I am always not happy. I am a lovable person, and I have so much love to give as well. I found this person who loves me and I love at the same time, but when I am still celebrating, I realize how hard it is to live together. Too much stuff to worry about...those little things lead to endless arguments, and then love fades. Money can solve a lot of problems of course, that I learned since I am a little kid. Those people who love money are not bad people, they are just more practical, or you can say smarter. Talking about money is a really hard thing in a relationship...it's just not that romantic. People who are in love don't think, and when it comes to money you need to think again. Love is something you can't touch but only feel, and talking about money is like going back to the real world. And the real world is ugly as hell. Lots people think there's only one person in the whole world that is perfect for them. I never think that way. It's just all depend on the time, place, and your situation. I'd love to think anybody can be you soul mate, if you want him/her to be. But i guess we all need to learn how to do that. Like me, I haven't learned that yet, because I depend on whoever becomes my love, which makes me weak and lost. I think one day i will have the courage to travel alone, and I hope I will enjoy the breeze on my way there. Of course I'll bring a GPS with me. ( I am using it, not depending on it!!!) 引用通告此日志的引用通告 URL 是： http://yypicsemilyye1124.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!536358295DC71BA!1044.trak 引用此项的网络日志
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